Some days being an INFJ is quite difficult.  I can’t count the number of times where I feel like I don’t fit in.  It doesn’t matter if I’ve known people for years or if I hardly know anyone, I generally feel out of place.  I feel this way at church, the ballpark, and various other social places.  It’s ever so strong at work. It’s hard.

I’m still trying to figure out what I’m supposed to be when I grow up.  I’m horrible at this. Do I try and train for a new career, only to be bored of it after so long?  Do I try to make hobbies a potential career, only to lose that hobby and have it be job-like?  Nothing ever stands out.  It’s hard to pursue something when nothing stands out.  I just want quiet and simple. Fitting in affects this as well.  If I’m not comfortable, I’m generally not interested.  If I pursue something I want it to fit me.  At this point I feel as if I’m on this mediocrity carousel that never stops. 

Today it just seemed to hit harder than usual…